For those of you that didn't know last year I had two miscarriages and it has been really hard for me to understand why it had to happen, It has been really hard on me and everything anyone would say or do just seemed to make it worse I struggled with trying to cope with not going full term when my due date would come up I would just be depressed and get so angry. We have been ready for another sweet litte baby to goin are family.
Well I found out about 4 weeks ago that I was pregnant agin I was so excited but I am really scared I called my doctors office and told them and the nurse called me and had me come in for blood test and started me on a few things to see if it would help me carry full term. Then when we thought I was at 6-7 weeks along I went in for an ultrasound to make sure things were looking good well we found out that I was only 5 weeks but things were looking good so far so every night I have prayed and all thru the day I pray asking him to help me. Yesturday was my first doctors appointment June 30th I was so scared I didn't want to be to excitied because the thought of going thru that heartbreak and depression I don't think I could do agin. But at the same time I was going to be able to see the baby and hopefully hear the heartbeat they took me back to the room and brought the ultrasound machine in and the nurse left me sitting ther waiting for the doctor I was going crazy I was looking at the machine trying to see if I could figure it out I just needed to konw if the baby was ok. I waited patiantly and the doctor came in and started talking to me and I told her I just need to see the baby Im scared and excited so she didn't wait any longer we did the exam and then the ultrasound befor seeing the screen I heard the sound that was the best thing I could ever hear the heart beat ahhhh I could relax alittle. Then she turned the screen so I could see it there was my baby it's still really small so you can't see the profil yet but Icould see my baby move and I could see the leg and the heart beating on the screen the doctor said everything was looking really good so far I am about two weeks farther than I have been with my miscarrages so far it's good a few more weeks and we will be past the scary stage and I will be in my second trimester. My due date is Febuary 5,2010 so I will try to stay positive and hope for a happy healthy baby girl/boy. Yea :)